CUTIES

Cassie just sent me these as a text and since I am sitting here blogging I though I would share. Because that is what any good Gram-Maw would do! :)

**WARNING VENTING AHEAD**

My emotions are all over the board lately. How is it we can be happy and sad at the same time?

So happy about being a Grandma

Sad they are so far away

Happy for RW"s job

Sad that it's in Alabama

Happy to hear David say, "Gram maw I love you"

Sad I can't hold him

Happy for the year I had with him

Sad for the time I will not have with Caleb or any other baby that comes along.

Sad that I will never have a relationship with them. No birthday's, no first day of school, no school plays, no sports, no cuddle time.

Missing my Cassie..oh my heart hurts. 

I can honestly say that not having Jeff here I am sure intensifies these feelings. I am hurting, angry, sad, mad, lonely and feel so bad for Grace and Jeffrey. So yes I am venting, whining, complaining whatever you want to call it and I am posting this.

I often struggle with how "real" to be on my blog. Oh the posts I have written and not published.While I know the Lord as my Savior I am still human. So while I know that God has walked ahead of me I do have feelings of frustration. The difference is that with my hurt I can call on my Father to help me through. 

In my distress I called to the LORD;
   I cried to my God for help.
From his temple he heard my voice;
   my cry came before him, into his ears.
Psalm 18:6

One of my favorite verses

“Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. ²⁹ Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. ³⁰ For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.” Matthew 11:28-30

Thankful to have a Lord to come before me. 

Florida Christmas

Cassie and family spent Christmas with the Roley's down in Florida. Here is a little collage of my sweet grand babies.