Missing my other life

Having one of those nights. Struggling with missing Jeff. It's been nearly seven years and I still ache for him. To hear his voice feel his touch.

Widows can relate to the dream where our husbands come back and you spend all night dreaming that your trying to catch them up on life. It's exhausting!

Another thing we can relate to is the question "how are you"? And our response "fine, great etc..". When we really want to say hurting, lonely, sad, frustrated etc.. Tired of being alone. I'm sad for my kids. Jeffrey just said today that he's sad he doesn't have a Daddy.  He said, "I want to be like D and G". Now I know I have a Lord and Savior that loves me and my children. But sometimes I can't breathe my heart hurts so bad.